Well, I guess it’s mainly the intangible things. For example, there are only 24 hours in a day and I already feel like I am using them as best as I can. How am I supposed to fit one more little precious life that is completely dependent on me within those hours too? Something else that is completely intangible but absolutely priceless… SLEEP! Will my husband and I ever get a full night’s sleep again with having TWO babies in the house? Sleep is crucial; I need it to be a good mom, a good wife, a good TV host (for you at home, hehe) and a well functioning person in society. I wish I could say I am stocking up now, but it’s hard for me to enjoy the sleep that I am getting now thanks to my “pregnancy bladder” waking me up every couple hours in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom.
And lastly, how will Tinsley react to adding another baby in the home? After all, she only got 12 months to be the center of attention… is that enough? While my husband and I don’t want to raise a “spoiled” child, there is something to be said for a child who feels loved, secure, and special. How will she react to not having our undivided attention on a daily basis anymore? And these are just some of the “worries” that I let creep into my mind! That’s my other confession… I am a worrywart, can you tell?
With all of that said, please don’t misunderstand what I am saying. My husband and I are THRILLED to be welcoming this baby boy into our family. After all, it took years for us to finally be able to welcome Tinsley into our life and it has been the biggest blessing for us as of yet. I have no doubt that once this little guy gets here, some of the “small” worries just won’t matter anymore. Not to mention, we are so happy Tinsley will have a sibling to love and share this world with for the rest of her life. But in the meantime, I would love to hear from YOU and other parents who have “been there, done that”. Many people have told me that if we can “survive” this first year, it will be totally worth it the end and that having two kids this close in age (15 months) will pay off once they are a little older. But is that what the first year will be, just “surviving”??? Thankfully beyond my husband and family, I do rely heavily on my faith. Each day I am trying very hard to give up the need to control things and continue to trust in God’s plan for my family’s life.
Again, I would love to hear your thoughts and encouragement…
Your local, anxious, worrywart ;)